The story is about a determinded Hockey Player who has no time for anything else then hockey, who pushes himself to be ahead of the others, who has ambitions as high as the himalaya just because he has had more oppurtunities and a father with the same mindset and connections but cant help himself when he is faced with the little whirlwind - his teammates sister and new roomate.
Tyler drives himself crazy with statictics, strategies and his future in hockey and forgets to live his life. He gives up his youth for his future and recognition of his father. He gives himself only a little bit of time for casual One Nights Stands but kicks his own arse when his new roomate is the woman he couldn' t forget. After her he didn't even want someone else and tries to control himself even though he feels the connection to her.
Seraphina is a girl who has to transfer her school beacause of her mothers cancer. She tries to navigate the schools curriculum, the expactations of her Party goer friends, her fear of the same Diagnosis as her mother and her ADHS, which in itself is quite a task even without the release of the steam/ the chemistry with Tyler.
Having each other near while having to handle all of the other things makes live quite hard for both of them. The pull between them doesn't let them get air, but they try to deny it anyway. For the sake of her brother and his teammate. After a while a friendship blooms between them and the friendship only deepens the pull which makes the chemistry off the charts.
Their love for each other is selfeless and spicy. The book showed me how important it could be to let somethings go when it drowns you.
Some quotes I liked:
"There's a delicate balance between grinding and burning out, and I walk that tightrope constantly. I'm only human, but the tem doesn't care about that. The competition doesn't care about that. There's always someone who wants it just as badly, if not more tha you- and if you take your foot off the gas pedal for even a second, they'll overtake you in a heartbear." p. 3
" Timing has little, if anything, to do with it. When you meet The One, you won't let them get away for anything." p. 57
" I'm not sure everyone gets to have that kind of love, though. Sometimes I think I'm too loud, too disorganized, too extram too messy." p. 57
"Getting tattoos is inexplicably calming; almost like my own version of therapy. When everathing else feels like it's out of my control - from my diet plan to my workouts to my future- it's one thing I have total autonomy over." p. 64
"Seraphina must have one hell of an effect on me, because I'm admitting things out loud that I haven't even admitted to myself, let alone anyone else." p. 166
"All the little pieces of you no one else gets? Those are my favorite" p. 238
"Wear whatever you want, Tink. I know how to fight." p. 242
"Kidding. Right. Otherwise known as the go-to gaslighting method of mysogynists everywhere. The're joking- until they mean it." p. 250 -> 100%
"I close my eyes and lean back in my seat, playing my favorite way to drive myself crazy: the game of What If. This is counterproductive at best, damaging at worst, and I do it all the time. Whe I picture the rest of my life five years down the line, I can't help but insert her in it. My brain does it automatically. She is everywhere. I can live without it if my career doesn't go where I want it to. But I can't live with not having her. Somewhere along the line, my mind realized that she's it for me, and now it refuses to accept otherwise." pp. 280-281
"...all of those What ifs flash through my kind again.They all start and end with her."
