The story follows Andrew and Penny, both living with dissociative identity disorder. Andrew has known about his condition for years and has learned how to manage it, while Penny does not yet understand what is happening to her. Watching Andrew try to help her figure it out is a central part of the story.
What makes this book so powerful is the care put into the characters. Each of them has multiple personalities, and they all feel distinct and thoughtfully developed. Some appear more often than others, but none of them feel exaggerated. Everything feels very real.
That realism is also what made it difficult to read. The backstories, especially Penny’s, are very heavy. Andrew’s past is painful as well, but Penny’s affected me much more. At times I had to put the book down because it was emotionally overwhelming. I started it months ago and needed breaks before I could finish it.
I would not recommend this book to everyone. It deals with serious trauma, and you need to be in the right headspace for it. Still, I am glad I read it. It is intense, detailed, and deeply human. The ending is not exactly happy, but it also is not tragic. It feels realistic, and that suits the story.
* TW: complex trauma, child abuse

























